I bite my tongue

and watch blood trace

patterns of words

I do not Know

I wish I could die or

become something more

engrave your whys into their thoughts

begin to understand you fools

love has, is and always will be

your favorite illusion

so drive me home after the opera

your scorn can follow me to my door

but it is not allowed to come in

there are demons tearing at my eyes

folding visions into pills

forcing me to enjoy the trip

saving my feelings for the day

when your eyes no longer lie

alas, to wait until the earth ceases to cry

outliving dreaming forever the nothings

that rend small scars on all your lives

pain has made my heart a plaything

I live with its choices

striving to be someone worth loving

the causeway across the rift between our souls

is unsteady and drifting

can you help to breach the walls

that stand between our kingdoms?

I wish for peace

I want you to know we must concede

or fall

hold out your hand

play not; jest not

I will not be taken lightly

God be with you and also with me

We must end this battle

that we engage in nightly.

So much heartbreak and hope

Conveyed in a single note